More Beautiful You

More Beautiful You Lyrics

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Jonny Diaz: More Beautiful You

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed awayBy the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

Song for my Love

Smile lyrics
Songwriters: Bose, Jeremy; Daly, Blair; Harding, J; Shafer, Matthew;

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side
Of my pillow, that's right

Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to whereYou send me, lets me know that it's okay
Yeah, it's okay
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
Even when you're gone,
Somehow you come along just like
A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain, and just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my headSpin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
'Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a beeJust the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

I think....

I think...

life should never be so busy that you forget how to live. I have been doing that at moments lately and I hate it. No Master's degree or amount of work is worth not enjoying the life God gave you.

being in love is a beautiful thing but if you haven't found your love yet, you shouldn't be broken by it but remember that God's timing is so much better than ours. Cause when it does come it is more precious than any mediocre relationship could ever have been. So for now fill your time with serving Jesus. It helps the loneliness. I know it does. It helped me whenever I felt lonely.

beauty is found in the face of a elderly weathered person with the story of their lives written in every smile line and tear of the past. I think it is also found in the face of a child who has nothing but their sweet face to offer the world.

elephants are one of the most amazing animals God ever made. I love them and eventually want to have one of my own. :D

that it is NOT a sin to converse with God if you are upset and don't understand why He chose a different route than we had hoped for. In fact, He waits for us to talk to Him about life whether it be joyful or frustrating in hopes that in the end we will see He has a purpose.

judging people on how good their life looks and treating them better when they look acceptable to us is wrong. It's not our place to judge how good a Christian a person is or isn't by what you see. Jesus didn't do it and we shouldn't either.

Christians should extend love and not sit in a bubble. I grew up in a church bubble. Once you leave it and get out of your comfort zone, Christ becomes more real than ever before. You realize who truly loved you and who just did because you were known in that place. It is sad but the truth is always better than living on pins and needles waiting for someone to see the IMPERFECT sinner you are. I am definitely a sinner but hey I am saved by the Blood of Jesus!

I don't know much about life and I fall short of being who I should be everyday but I love my Jesus. Even though I don't always trust like I should or read my Bible consistently everyday. I still love Him and He loves me...and that blows my mind.

learning how much I have to grow to become a godly transformational servant leader is sometimes discouraging but always worth the lesson cause you can't grow if you don't first see the need to.

that I need to learn to listen to others not just hear them. I am very bad at listening sometimes...I am working on it though.

that I miss seeing friends from college. So many are scattered all over the world now. I miss them all and hope life is treating them well.

I miss feeling a part of a church where it felt like home. God took me out of my old church for good reason but it doesn't mean I don't miss the feeling of belonging. That's probably the hardest part of transitioning. Missing friendships that you know will never be again because you no longer go there. Life changes for the better cause it is all in God's timing and plan but no one ever said it would be easy.

that reading the Harry Potter books are not a sin just like reading Lord of the Rings isn't and people shouldn't judge others who have read them. (I haven't)

that I love people and wish I could be better about smiling at others when I am stressed or don't feel well. I want to display Christ's love, I just fail at it often.

doing the right thing is always better than taking the easy way out. It hurts my heart when people do the easy thing and justify it in their minds. Honoring God is often a much harder and somewhat lonelier route but in the end there is peace and joy in knowing you honored your Savior.

that heaven has to be mind boggling if there can be beauty in the world like I have seen in life. Whether through a picture, or being fortunate enough to witness it with my own eyes. I can't imagine how much more amazing it is going to be.

I am in a random mood so these are random things I have pondered recently. I know I have a finite mind and what I think is not always right or right for another person. It's just what has been on my mind and my heart. Kinda like this song....

Wonderful Maker--Chris Tomlin

You spread out the skies over empty space
Said "let there be light"
Into a dark and formless world Your light
was born

You spread out Your arms over empty hearts
Said "let there be light"
Into a dark and hopeless world Your Son
was born

You made the world and saw that it was good
You sent Your only son for You are good

What a wonderful Maker
What a wonderful Savior
How majestic Your whispers
And how humble Your love
With a strength like no other
And the heart of a Father
How majestic Your whispers
What a wonderful God

No eye has fully seen, how beautiful the cross
And we have only heard
The faintest whispers of how great You are

Life and Love

Wedding stuff is going well. Got's lots still to do but I am so thankful to have most major stuff done.

We recently booked a caterer and the cabin we will be staying at on our honeymoon. Now it is just picking a place for the rehearsal dinner and get minor details. I am excited because our wedding food is going to be very tasty!

Bradney and I began to volunteer at a food bank recently. It has been such an amazing blessing to us both to be able to serve the Lord as we serve those in need. I have met such amazing people and lovely children because of it. I am working with the kids that come with their parents to get food. I have been playing games, doing puzzles, coloring and just talking to them which is awesome. Bradney has been helping distribute and take food to cars for the people. We are so blessed to have a ministry that we can serve in together. Through this ministry I became aware of VBS through Canyon Christian Fellowship. A good friend and I served the Lord as we ministered to 80 children and their families with many others. It was tough because so many come from such very different lives but it was wonderful to see them singing and laughing and having a blast learning about Jesus. Praise the Lord for every person who served. I have never been so blessed and humbled as when I am serving my savior and His beautiful children. I am so thankful for the ability to do so.

Anyway thats about it in life right now. Kinda crazy but so wonderful at the same time.

Sick

I have the stomach flu or some sort of bug that makes me feel gross and disgusting. I am frustrated because I can't work, can't focus on homework, can't go to class. I feel like it is all piling up and all I can do is feel like throwing up. Bleh. I hate the feeling being nauseous. I am sure no one likes it because it is so unpleasant but yea. Anyways it is a beautiful day I just wish I could really enjoy it. Instead I sit inside 7-up and Crackers next to me covered up watching old movies. I mean granted this isn't a terrible thing to do but a bit hard when there is so much else in life to get done. Ok world, stay beautiful so when I do feel better I can come out and play. :)

Hmm...

Do you ever wonder why God chooses to bless you? Why you are the one to be able to obtain your hearts desire when others, more deserving than you, still wait for the gift you already received? I try to figure that out every day. I have an amazing family whom I love,amazing friends who are dear to my heart, and a fiancé that surpassed my wildest dreams of what a husband could be. I didn't do anything. I don't come close to deserving any of it. I am in awe. No my life is not perfect, so far from it. Yet I receive mercy and love beyond anything I ever imagined. Grace. beautiful Grace... is the only answer as to why I could ever obtain these crazy things called blessings. I pray for those who I see hurting, lonely, lost. My heart aches as I desperately pray God will bless them too because I always feel they deserve it so much more than me..to be happy and loved. God is such a merciful and loving God. He blesses in spite of sin. Praise God. :) Meanwhile I pray for all those that are going through tough times, loneliness, heartache. God is here.

All I Can Say

This song is beautiful. It speaks of the fallibility of humanity to doubt and become frustrated. Then it speaks of God's faithfulness...

The David Crowder Band

All I Can Say

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

And didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down

Chorus:
And this is all that I can say right now
i know it's not much
And this is all that I can give
yeah that's my everything

Bridge:
I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

Planning

So I am engaged now as of last Saturday (February 20th) so much has been going on:

Bradney asked me to marry him

Went wedding dress shopping with Becca (For her not me)

Got asked to be Becca's Maid of Honor (Yay!!!)

Finally realized that foundations is the bane of my existence

Earth Quake in Chile

Tsunami warnings

So weird. My prayers are with all the people in Haiti, Chile, and Hawaii. I am not sure if I should be extremely happy or extremely sad or just melancholy about everything. I feel like I am just beginning the planing part for the start to the rest of my life and helping others do that as well (Becca) and the world seems like Jesus is coming soon. It is just such an odd time for the world...

Peace, Love....Worry

Well I started another term yesterday...foundations...Its a little odd but I am not sure how comfortable I am with this class... I mean come-on it's just a class right? One where they want to teach you to know yourself, face your fears, face your "shadows" and grow. They want you to face past pain and actually deal with it. They want you to see the problems and issues you know you still have in the back of your mind but don't really think they are a problem... Do all this in order to become a good leader who knows yourself, knows who you serve and this can help you value/understand/love and become the best leader you possibly can....Good right? Good. Yes. But being vulnerable? I would like to be comfortable with that...well...maybe more like be comfortable with allowing myself to be in that uncomfortable vulnerable place....but for now. I am not enjoying the anticipation of what I will have to face this coming 8 weeks. I am ready to become a leader who knows who I am, my weaknesses, faults, and strengths and who is willing to serve in such a way that empowers, motivates, loves, sacrifices, supports, is trustworthy and possesses integrity while I value those I serve/lead but I as I am ready standing on the cliff's edge ready to jump into this thing....I am having to force myself to be ok with what I will discover, have to face, and have to deal with...I am not quite there but I am ready to allow the Lord to get into the inner parts of who I am and transform me into the leader/woman I need to be...the servant leader I need to be, with a good strong foundation. But for now I squirm a bit. Aside from this class' anticipation...I have found lately that...anxiety has enveloped me. I know I need to trust right now and I am consciously attempting to relax but it isn't working so well at the moment. I don't know why. It is a bit frustrating. I am reading my Bible, praying, and desperately attempting to trusting God but my brain is trying to work against me. I want to love, to encourage others...to be who I am without stressing about life...mine or those I love around me...body...stop being stupid and forget the world's worries...rest in God's peace....please?